Unfamiliar (2016)

Scott’s Selection: 12/18/16 – 12/24/16

Theme: Best of 2016

Artist: In Her Own Words

Release Date: 10/14/2016

Runtime: 35:17

Label: InVogue Records

Track Listing:

1). Nothing Left – 3:41
2). Sink Your Teeth – 2:48
3). I Would Sit Alone in Silence – 3:14
4). Strangers – 3:44
5). Silver Lights – 3:48
6). Collapse – 2:02
7). I Was Honest, You Were Lying – 3:08
8). Reverie – 3:02
9). Drag Me Down – 3:13
10). Cut & Dry – 2:20
11). I Could’ve Been – 4:13

Lyrics:

1). Nothing Left

Back then I never had my own thoughts, And I would rely on every word you’d say. When you left, I connected my head and insecurities.

2). Sink Your Teeth

Down and out, but I still have something left to say. It’s all different now, and I think I’m standing in your way. I can not understand the things that they’re saying,

And I’m not cut out for all the games that they’re playing. And I used to think that you would have my back, But you just took what you wanted from me… So sink your teeth into my neck, and deflate me. I never thought that it would come to this, But my walls are closing in on me again… And everyone I know’s becoming unfamiliar. It’s like they never knew me at all. And it’s been so long since I’ve gotten close to anyone, And I’m not strong, But you could never tell, ’cause the way I present myself. Like everything is fine, When everything’s not fine. And I keep finding myself, Digging myself, Deeper in to holes I can’t climb out of… Beneath the constand regret of, The way I’ve been acting, so down and out. But I still have something left to say… And it’s been so long, and I hope it never comes to this again. I never thought that it would come to this, But my walls are closing in on me again… And everyone I know’s becoming unfamiliar, It’s like they never knew me at all. Yeah, it’s like they never knew me at all…

3). I Would Sit Alone in Silence 

My mood is inconsistent and it changes with the weather. In the city of resistance, I haven’t been feeling better about anything or anyone that I chose to believe in. And something tells me I won’t find the one thing that I needed

I’ll pick myself up everyday. Won’t let the world around me become a cage I can’t escape. I keep in touch with my mistakes, but when they surround me it’s another panic state And I never said a word about the way that I was feeling, ’cause I trained myself to lie and tell myself that I am fine. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve always kept this pain inside. And I never had that person that made everything alright My mood is inconsistent and it changes with the weather. In the city of resistance, I haven’t been feeling better about anything or anyone that I chose to believe in. Something tells me I’m about to see the consequence of feeling If you ever tried to ask me what was going on inside, I would sit alone in silence while my thoughts eat me alive If I could just go back in time and stop myself, I’d stop myself from holding everything inside of my head. In my head lies the consequence of every feeling that I hide

4). Strangers 

You’ve got a razor tongue And your words cut me open, bloody and broken Let’s let this soak in

I thought I’d never wanna see you again But I saw you again last night And now I’m gonna do what I said I’d never do I’m throwing all my pride away and crawling back to you If breaking all my rules is something that I have to do, Then I hope you break yours too (do you remember saying) Our goodbyes in your room We’ll pack our things and leave, come back next year to see the Strangers that we’ve let ourselves become One last goodbye on the Shoulder you cried on, let You dry your eyes on my Blue shirt that you loved I know that you’ll sleep fine without me by your side Without me by your side I took the long way to your house so I could see if your light was on, in your bedroom And now I know that you’re the one who I’ll compare everyone else to My heart is black and blue, we’re getting older too And keeping everything inside is something that I do We used to make this happen We used to make this – Happen (Think back on everything we said) Everything that we abandoned The swings behind your house might as well be broken now We were lying to ourselves One last goodbye on the Shoulder you cried on, let You dry your eyes on my Blue shirt that you loved I know that you’ll sleep fine without me by your side Without me by your side And there’s just some things about me That you will never understand Things will never go back to the way that they used to be Things will never go back to the way that they used to be


5). Silver Lights 

Sorry I didn’t call I glued my phone to the table in the other room
So I would never be able to fuck with your head again, but I still miss your bed
I know I said I’d never let my peace of mind out of my head
But it snuck out like we used to on Friday nights
I know it’s hard to understand what I’ve been going through
I don’t expect you to

But I’ve been making progress in moving past this
Trying not to think about the things that we did
And the way your eyes looked at night before we went to bed

Now you’ve got 3 missed calls. There’s so much I could say
We both roam different paths with 3 state lines in the way
When you walk to class does the wind burn your face?
Does it mess up your hair?
15 hours on a train, and you were home a couple days
Now you wait for a call to ignore. But I hope you know
I avoid the streets that used to lead my feet to your front door

I hope you’re making progress in moving past this
Trying not to forget all the things that we did
But we both know
That i can’t wipe your tears through the computer screen
And you’re not here to move the cloud over my head
I thought that we could make this work but my mind fell apart again
But I’ve been making progress in moving past this
I’m trying not to think about the things that we did
And the way your eyes looked at night before we went to bed

6). Collapse 

Quiet on the drive home, old habits knocking all my lights out. It used to be so entertaining. Why does it feel like suffocating? All of the fire that’s burning inside me is starting to go out. It used to burn but feels so cold now. I’m so sick of running away from all the mistakes and ignoring things I’m too scared to face. I always thought that I’d be the one to fix things when they collapse. Self destructive when I’m alone with all this nervous energy. It’s too hard, I can’t get through this. It’s nothing new. I always do this. I can’t believe I let it get the best of me. I’ll take a different route. (A different fucking route.) My feet are tired cause I’m always Running away from all the mistakes and ignoring things I’m too scared to face. I always thought that I’d be the one to fix things when they collapse. Quiet on the drive home, old habits knocking all my lights out. Knocking all my lights out

7). I Was Honest, You Were Lying 

Just let me out. It’s just so difficult to say. Hear me out. It’s getting harder every single day. I’m stuck in between of saying what I mean, and what you want to hear. You gave up when I kept trying. I was honest, you were lying. The end of summer made us fall, and by December, we felt nothing at all. So let me go, I’m over it. I don’t want to know. And I don’t wanna know where you’ve been, who you’re with, or what you said. Don’t tell me everything that made you feel like giving up. Made you feel like giving up. So make this count, and I don’t wanna hear it. You’re throwing fist after fist in hopes of healing. It’s unappealing. I didn’t plan for this. So I don’t want to know where you’ve been or how you’re doing if you’re back home. I can hardly breathe, dealing with decisions that you made. We’re getting older everyday, and you never fail to mention all the broken memories. The drives, the calls, the nights that you never wanted anyway. That’s what you said to me. So let me go, I’m over it. I don’t want to know. And I don’t wanna know where you’ve been, who you’re with, or what you said. Don’t tell me everything that made you feel like giving up. You made me feel like letting go. So let me go because I’m over it. I’m over it. So let me go, so let me go, so let me go, so let me go, so let me go

8). Reverie 

Somehow we talked it up without saying a goddamn word
Forgot everything we heard about the world
And how we’d learn it’d knock us over in the end
And I don’t wanna be a backup plan again
I don’t wanna be your pick-me-up again
You promised everything would work out in the end
I don’t wanna be a backup plan again
The words that you took back
Were never the ones that would ever mean anything to me
I gave you my best shot but you were a lost cause
Why did you mean anything to me?
Got strung up on everything that never was important
I’ll try to get it right. I just don’t know what to do
I’m trying my hardest to keep my composure
I’m trying my hardest to keep my feet on the ground
And my hands in my pockets
The bags straining the skin below my eyes show
The wear and tear of you being around
I just don’t know what to do
Chalked it up to feeling so let down again
Finally found a place to lay my head, but it’s hard to sleep
I’ll stay awake instead
Feeling like I’m walking aimlessly again
Making pebbles into boulders once again
I walk these streets all alone to clear my head
I don’t wanna wander aimlessly again
Got strung up on everything, cut ties to everything we had

9). Drag Me Down 

When I was young, I never thought about all the shit that now is starting to drag me down. I knew someday I’d have some trouble figuring this out. Sometimes I sit inside my room at night with my head face-down into the pillow and I tell myself I’m never gonna feel this way again. And I have been so hard on myself these days. Finding my escape. I’m trying desperately. And I can’t face this world alone; I never could. Direction misunderstood. I’m writing songs down in my basement, 15 years old, about my situation. It was so easy just to feel alive. And now the weight is pushing down. My innocence in burning out. And I have been so hard on myself these days. Finding my escape. I’m trying desperately. And I can’t face this world alone; I never could. Direction misunderstood. Broken mirrors, seven years, my luck is getting worse and worse. My superstitious thinking will be the death of me. And I have been so hard on myself these days. Finding my escape. I’m trying desperately. And I can’t face this world alone; I never could. Direction misunderstood

10). Cut & Dry 

Thinking through the consequences. I don’t have much time. And I’m miserable, I’m not invisible. My head is like a heavy casket going down the line to an early grave. What I’m trying to say is what you don’t want to hear. It’s what no one wants to hear. And I’ve broken every bone in my body and left unspoken for. I can’t understand all of the long-term plans. So cut and dry, so why the fuck can’t I seem to catch a break this time? Can I make it through the night? And I thought about the emptiness I feel coursing through my veins. It runs red. My bloodshot eyes suggest that I’ve been trying to numb the pain

11). I Could’ve Been 

You never wanted to see me leave this. I never wanted to stick around. And there’s a rainstorm in my head that I just can’t outrun right now. I’m faking smiles and stomachs aches so I can get away. Sometimes I think that I’m the only one who feels this way. The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head. And I can’t understand why I can’t just move on and get passed them. It’s probably my own fault, and who’s to say I can’t fix it? But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way. I thought that with a change of pace, that I could get the hang of this. You’re just another something that I can’t seem to erase. I thought that with a change of pace, that things would start to feel okay again. I guess I’m never gonna learn. I tried to make it to the ending of a book I never read. I’m relapsing to my old self trying to skip all these steps. I’m faking smiles and stomach aches when I start to feel trapped. It’s hard to breathe. I never thought that I would lie to the ones who stay close to me. I thought that with a change of pace, that I could get the hang of this. You’re just another something that I can’t seem to erase. I thought that with a change of pace, that things would start to feel okay again. I guess I’m never gonna learn. Could you tell I wasn’t honest? (I could’ve been.) I couldn’t be all that you wanted

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